When all else fails


Trying over and over, Changing words and voice tones, Approaching them differently, Turning a blind eye to all their wrongs that hurt you, Making excuses for them hurting you to friends and family.  Making excuses for those days and nights they weren’t there for you. The funny thing about loving someone that brings you so much pain and joy is that we hold on to those moments of joy, We see that happiness they bring at times. Because if you attempt to see and accept that pain that comes more often than those smiles you’ll have to question why you’re still there, hanging on, praying for better days. Notice YOU are trying to make things work, YOU are holding on. When it should be “US” One person cant make a relationship work on there own. I know all to well how this feels. When all else fails make the choice that you can look yourself in the face and know it was the best decision.  Choose Happiness when all else fails

When Love Isnt Enough

imagesloveI’ve watched people fall in and out of love. The worse way to display your hurt from a person you love is publically. We all know when things go bad between you and someone you put time and effort into. Your first instinct is to fly off the handle. Run to social media CALL THEM OUT!! You want to the whole world to know. It’s hard to filter your feelings when you’re hurting. But it’s so important to step back and take time to yourself, THINK. Did you know people feed off of others misery and pain? Did you know that once you show that side of you people will connect and view you as that person. Care about how you present yourself. Everybody doesn’t care about you even so called friends so you better care.

No words can describe the pain of loving someone so much and their love for you doesn’t match up or compare to yours. You can give them the world but trust me you cant make anyone treat you better, It’s their choice, and defending their actions when you know they’re wrong is only setting yourself up to be hurt again. You’re literally giving them the green light to continue and do you wrong. No one respects a person that will let THEM continually cheat, lie and hurt them. Let that sink it. Love is one thing but RESPECT is a whole other level. Love doesn’t equal respect. They can love you but have no respect for you. Love you but will lie to you. It’s levels to it.   Now if you want to stay with them regardless of how they treat you fine but you cant complain because that’s what you want….right? You’ll Confront the people their cheating with but you wont take a stand and demand the person you made a commitment with to get it together or move on.

Love will turn the most sane person crazy, I’ve been there. It’s hard to move on when you  feel you’ve been through so much and you invested so much time or you have kids together.. etc.  If you think hard about what you feel you deserve as a matter of fact write it down and look at the person that you’re fighting for, Are they giving you what you deserve?? Are you happy with this person or just cant stand the thought of having a empty bed. Think about it….

My Small City/Town Complex


I’m from a very small town called Badin located in NC and I live in a small city called Albemarle. The kind of place where everyone knows everybody or related to them lol Their are some perks to small city living such as low crime rate and trust it doesn’t take long to find out what they did in the newspaper right in the “Blotter” section. Traffic isn’t bad unless you’re trying to get to Wal-Mart on Friday then you’re screwed. The down side is people are so nosey and not the regular nosey I mean the “I’m bored so let me see what other people got going on” nosey. It’s doesn’t take long to find out who’s doing who and what and with social media so popular it spreads  like wild fire.

I have a love/hate for it, I love the fact I see my classmates out and about but some I see some aren’t doing well so it hurts a little. I love the fact my daughter isn’t growing up around drugs and gunshots around her, but I wonder what will life be like for her when she ventures outside of this small city world. I love to see her classmates are my classmates kids I cant describe what that feels like. But the way the world is now I wonder how many of her classmates will make it through with her. I pray for better times with the upcoming generation. I hate the fact that being in a relationship where more than likely the person your with has been with at least two to three people in a room or have kids by them. It’s rough but entertaining also, imagine watching people that have slept with each others man and fought and blast each other on Facebook sit and take selfies together and call each other boo and bae. Imagine seeing men hanging out with the same dudes that shot their family member or close friend. That’s small town living for you, it’s bittersweet but in a place where you cant hold a grudge because families grew up together and known each other to long. In a big city their wouldn’t be any of this that’s a fact.

Life is what you make it whether in a small city or major city you  determine what kind of life you choose to live. I like to think I’m a small town woman with big city dreams. I can do what I do anywhere but if I couldn’t do it here first I shouldn’t do it anywhere else. I love to hate it and I hate that I love it.

Complicated Love

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I don’t wanna let go and you know this. You don’t wanna  let go and I know this. So many situations in our lives has made it hard for us to even entertain a “Us” life. But I value having you in my life even thou it’s no the way I want you in my life. I miss smelling you and being near you, You don’t even have to touch me and I can feel you all over me. Pacing myself trying to play it cool I just want you no one else just you. So complicated and misunderstood but I get it I get you. This complicated love isn’t for anyone to understand but me and you.

It’s Been a Long Time!!!

I know I’ve been missing in action, but I promise I’ve been busy doing good stuff and not very bad things lol I’ve finally stepped up and I’m taking my cake decorating talents seriously. I never really thought that the things I do people would actually want to buy them!!

So I’ve worked day and night on learning new techniques and improving recipes. My daughter said she was so proud of me :) That’s priceless… So Hello Everyone my name is Shanae and I the owner of “Nae Nae’s Petite Treats!!!!  Below is some of my creations, This is a huge turning point in my life. I’ve chose to step out the box and commit to pushing myself and believing in me.




My Main Purpose

On February 11 2004 I gave birth to my first child my son Tyler, He was premature. He was a real fighter and he forever changed my life. He passed away one month and a day later. My love for him is hard to put in words. I miss him so much. He would have been 10 years old this year.



One year later to the day on February 18 2005 I gave birth to my daughter Melah. She just turned 9 What a blessing!! I have a angel above and one here with me. She has such a huge personality and brings me so much joy.

So the month of February is a reminder of what matters the.most to me. My purpose is so clear

Searching Heart

My heart roams for hours and days and years, Searching for what it loans for. My heart…broken over and over and betrayed so hurt and confused. It weeps softly in the night and prays for a better day when the sun raises.

My heart speaks so profoundly when it feels like we’ve found the ONE, When I’m sick and tried this battered and bruised heart of mines still pushes on. It’s strong…it’s determined. One day I asked, All of the things we’ve been through and overcome just to endure it once more will anyone accept us?
I mean look at us. We’re in shambles!

My heart spoke and with no doubt,  said the one we seek is in search of us also and will take us just as we are. The act of True Love looks beyond all the hurt and pain and where you lack they will build you up, Where they are weak you will be strong.

Bless my heart it’s truly amazing